my name is david and decided to start this blog to remind myself how much i love my wife michelle. too cheesy you say? well, read a little more and you'll understand what i am trying to do. i have been married to michelle for almost 7 years now. we have two wonderful kids, adam (3) and emma (1). when my best friend alex introduced me to michelle, i knoew right there she was the one. i loved her from the moment i saw her. while we were dating, i noticed o alot of emotional problems with her, but i was so head over heals that i didn't care. remember being so in love that you think you can climb any mountain, overcome any obstacle in your way, thinking the world is yours, and just living and loving every day with your love? well, that is exactly what it was like dating michelle. she was so funny and full of life. i felt as if i had found my true love, my soul mate, the one i had longed for all my life. and so it came that we married, after dating for only a few months. and even though this does not match the happily-ever-after profile, this is when things started to fall apart....
i had never noticed, or never wanted to notice, how sad michelle was. yes, we were both very much in love, but she would always "hide" away. she would be online several of hours every day after work. she never wanted to go out with other people. she stopped going to church with me and when she did, she only came to please me. i asked her to stop to drink alcohol before we got married and she did, but then she would always come back and say she lost all her fun in life because she stopped drinking. these things i listed here are just a few. now, 7 years later i am trying to keep the family together. she has almost completly withdrawn herself from our family.
with this blog, i am just trying to find a place to talk about my emotions. people just don't don't understand. my family and friends are always telling me to leave her and i have to attmit i have considered the option in my darkest of hours. but, i love her. nothing, not even her depression can change this.
well, i hope to find a few reader, and maybe even some with advise.
